Motivational Monday

So I was sent an email the other day telling me that my husbands health is just as important as mine. This past month I have been so focused on my husband and just gave up on myself. I gained back majority of the weight that I worked so hard to get off. I do this to myself a lot, I will lose 10+ pounds and then end up back to where I started. I am so frustrated with myself for continuing this cycle. My husband is supporting me but I feel like I need to do more for him rather than myself. He is going through so much more than I am, I just don't know how to support him through this except to put myself on the back burner and put all my extra strength into him and my children. I have been emotionally and physically exhausted. When I workout I feel so much better, I have more energy and I think clearly...I know what I have to do.

Maybe my good mood will help me, help my husband?

Invisible Wounds.

So I have taken a break from blogging for a bit for personal reasons. After our move things started going down hill for our family of four. If you have read my blog or know our family personally you would know my husband was an Infantry Marine, he has been out for close to two years now. He served two combat tours, one in Iraq and another in Afghanistan. Since he got back from his last deployment he hasn't been the same. He was not the guy that I fell in love with but I still loved him as much as the day I married him, even though he has been changed forever.   

*please if you know us personally, don't think of our family any differently. 

If you think you may, then stop reading. 

After he returned home from Afghanistan he was severely depressed. When he wasn't working he was sleeping. We never went anywhere and when we would, it turned into a huge argument on how many people were around and him not wanting to go inside. Nine times out of ten, he would shut down and leave me in the middle of the store alone...

"Broken by battle,

Wounded by war,

I love you forever,

To you this I swore:

I will quiet your silent screams,

Help heal your shattered soul

Until once again, my love, you are whole."

-Battling Bare

  

My husband was diagnosed with PTSD
and our lives have been forever changed.  

*I may write more about what has been going on but for now this is it. So I am sorry if I am absent for a few days to weeks at a time. I still haven't given up on my personal goals, my husbands health is just more important.   

Internet

Well, we've moved and are almost settled. Just a few more boxes that we need to unpack. We don't have internet yet, we have to get it before the hubster goes to school in two weeks, but for now we are using our phones. Cell phone service isn't very good where we are so I can't write as much as I wish. I hate not having internet, all of my recipes are on pinterest and it takes 30 minutes to load a page...i think we will end up getting a new service provider. I can't bring myself to pay close to $140 bucks for phones we can't use!

Anyways, the McDonalds about a mile down the road has free WiFi so maybe I will walk over there to to post?

Here are a few things that has happened...
Little man has started full on crawling,  right in the middle of the move. He was crawling a little but he is speed crawling now!
Little Man has also gotten TWO teeth! I think he may be cutting another, he slept horribly last night. He was up every two or three hours. He is also spitting up a lot more than his normal so I think the doctor is going to need to adjust his medication. Poor thing.
Miss A knows her numbers and counts to five, she is also doing a really good job with her letters and is practicing writing (tracing) them.

I Slap Myself in the Face Every Morning

  ...not literally, but here lately I have found myself obsessing over the numbers on the scale. I go on a binge some days because it just slaps me in the face, every.single.day. I am an emotional eater and I need to stop this. Sometimes I step on the scale multiple times per day like its going to change or something. So I am going to step on it only once a week. I could also be eating better and I know that I am not doing everything that I can do to lose weight, so its a double slap. I have so many meals planned for when we move. I can't wait to get my pots and pans out and cook an actual meal. The, "use whatever is in the house so we don't have to move it", is getting kinda disgusting. Which are things that we would have moved with us and they would be in the pantry so its better to get it all out in two weeks rather than eating it when I am doing really good...right?

Motivatonal Monday and a HOP

 

That is so true!

I am in my first ever blog hop today, yay! 

      ...and it's moving week, FINALLY. The garage is packed waiting to be loaded on the truck.

Do the Wubbzy Workout!

Today my little princess was a sick little princess so we did nothing but watch cartoons the whole day. On Pinterest I have seen some movie and TV series workouts. So I decided to make a workout for one of our most watched shows on our television, Wow! Wow! Wubbzy!...

I have done this twice today and it was interesting. My daughter thought I was going crazy and kept telling me to sit down.

I am not the creator of Wubbzy, my daughter is just a huge fan of his. All credit for the Wubbzy goodness goes to Bob Boyle and Nick Jr.. I just simply put a workout to the cute sayings the Wow! Wow! Wubbzy! producers created. Now go get your workout on, its that easy!

We Found a Townhouse!

We have FINALLY found our home for the next two years, it's an amazing three bedroom townhouse with a large kitchen and living room. We hope to move in by the middle of the month. The hubby is starting school next month is it already August??, so we hope to be settled in by then. Our new place is located right off the start of a 14 mile bike trail, perfect for the training that I have to start do. The Color Run is coming up fast and I need to get this butt into gear!

Turbo Fire isn't going as well as I hoped it would, I think its a combination of all the stress and not eating as healthy as I would like. I haven't lost much weight, 6 pounds total, and I am not really happy with that. I love this program though, that is why I am saying its the stress. I feel it working but I am not seeing results like I hoped I would see by now. I am very disappointed in myself but I will keep pushing through to the end. Hopefully once we move things will get better and we can get back into a normal routine.